monday is a special day. a great great day to start the week with. a sentimental day with special meanings. gotta spend it with the special someone. maybe it wasn't a good day. but it still was a special day.

monday woke up after only a brief 5 hours of sleep. morning was greeted warmly with headache. weather was good. heart lifted and looking forward. woke up very early vacuumed and mopped the floor at home. i had to. met zhixiang and renjie in clubhouse at 10am. bought a bowl of beancurd for some sugar and food in my tummy. went gym with zhixiang at 1030 until almost 12. ended up we both got hurt. his is worse and bled. must be damn painful. about 12 went fc2 to eat with renjie and issac too. zhixiang bought a whole chicken and 4 rice. shared together. he spent around 20bucks for that. i spent only 4 bucks buying 4 cans of pepsi for everyone. great meal together. after lunch me and zhixiang bought fries and looked for wanjie sharmaine and joyce in fc1.

after lunch i kept my mind occupied thinking of ways to keep myself entertained. didn't worked out exactly well. instead decided to just lie down and do nothing. maybe try to sleep abit? but obviously doesn't work out as well. but from 2 to 5 i was just lying there. didn't really wanted to bother about anyone also. there wasn't much people in club anyways. zhixiang keep disturb me at 4 until i want whack him le. lol. sat up waiting for dear after 5 but she had other agendas to attend to. kept waiting. always worth waiting for. freshies came in around 6 and everyone were bored too. dear came in before 7 and went for dinner with her at fc3. burger king. but they ain't got a ice cream machine that's working. so did without ice cream. dinner is always wonderful with someone you love. we don't have anywhere we wanna go so we went to join the others at their rehearsal in t17. but the boredom scare the hell out of me. what kept me going was that sky and issac was present. it makes me happy just to see them around. maybe jiasheng as well. went off at 10 after they ended.

quarreled with dearest. about nothing at all. just me being stupid bahs. maybe it's always me being the childish one. must be my stupidity. so i can only wait for her to not be angry or sad. still worth waiting for. i love my girlfriend! <3
tuesdays isn't the kind of days to mean anything much other than another day of work. i guess it's pretty much the same for everyone else too. like a grey sky day. met zhixiang and xiu at somerset at 330. something worth mentioning is that i reached somerset at 313. to go to 313. pretty lame but mm yea.. met up with them around 340 went to get gummies sweets candies chocolates. nope. i just looked around. of cos i was tempted! of cos. very much! but grey skies.. acted pretty moody to them also. had to leave them at 420 and went to work le.

met ken caroline and audrey at raffles at 440 when they were sending caroline off. guess she's going for her dancing again? reached workplace at 5. worked till 12+. work is as usual. but we were decently fun. there were ken audrey meiyu jeffrey travin and huiting. i was food runner. so not that kinda busy as well. everyone's leaving. friday is everyone's last day. yea.. then how i survive alone? still have to wait till mid august then go the other job with huipeng and meiyu. closing time all taking punchcard there count count. compare how many hours etc. then i thinking whether i should work on thursday too. because that's my only day open. add it in and i can get another 50bucks. worthy?

2pm tmr to meet audrey and meiyu they all to draw randy's birthday card. irony. friday's his birthday. everyone's last day. dun think i gonna reach that early. so lame to stay there see the girls draw draw card le. gonna sleep till energy bursting and go run run le. i hate running. just by working strains my leg. even in my sleeps i can feel my leg very suan le. after run run bath and go meet them. and work le. thursday can rest abit but gonna meet zhixiang in the afternoon to continue train. that's like the most important thing in my life at this junction. that being said but dear's still champion bahs. prioritize. kept me thinking over for one year le. still remembers how leonard ask me to live my life. not to live in a void. and life can be happy. maybe he's right? but i still don't get it either. not yet.

had a conversation with yun last last thursday. heartwarming? just wishes and awkward moments i guess. met her ytd at dover in the morning as well. she's like so 'her'. kel asking me to save money and how to do it. haas yea i should really try. really soon. gemini power. people i could entrust to any secret. speak of any word. spoke with vanne last night about alot. she says we have a weird bond. qi guai. nahs i dun really know. but one thing i agree is that we've all really been through so much. everyone. all grown up so much. changed here and there. but we all grow together.

god watches over me. i've been trying so very hard for everything. could i take a break. could i not spell out the words. could i not spill out the feelings. could u feel my feelings? could u see into me? i know im stupid but could i for one day look through things. and not always trap myself up in some kind of strange wires and ropes. could i not hyperventilate. not struggle. i need to learn to start breathing. amen.