today was a good day le. woke up at around 7 and msging people le. then sleep back wake up at 11. then online a while, set my hair, prepare things then went sch le. reached at 130 liddat. Went club house see zhixiang and renjie playing dota lod. and kiatseng singing radiohead- creep. then we all waiting for dear to go eat lunch together. 2 we jiu went to eat at fc4. then i tell them the place i not shou. dunno how to go le. Ate with dearest, zhixiang, renjie and xiu. the taiwanese bento de. i like. :) Hmm jiu dunno renjie and xiu how le. Better get well soon bahs. People always says change is evil. Yet the only constant is change. Cos change always hurt people. the people who were comfortable and happy. when a change occurs that hurts people. and people hurts people. and the hurted hurts more people. :( a simple wish is that we would all still be together after 5 years, 10 years, 20 years, 50 years. Watching each other grow, watching each other still together like how we are now. :) seemingly how me and my buddies always fantasizes about that. :)
After lunch went to clubhouse to slack. But didn't really like being there. Cos there's a kind of I dun belong there kind of feeling. Esp from the president all that. And others are just unfamiliar faces. However was pretty happy seeing people joking and playing games all that. Seeing those guys playing there I was like I really hope I was there to play with them for like 3 hours, 5 hours sia. But I just smile nia and keep telling myself I've long past that age le. Slack until like sleepy le but enjoyed my time with dear of cos. playing what fat bird flying game, ghost grave game, and her zombie restaurant game. and watching happy tree friends there le. Haas. Like a kid yea ain't she? But I really dun like it seeing her once after too long. I always gives me the kind of distance. like at first look it's such an unfamiliar face you didn't really knew. Just peculiar. But distance always makes me think too much, or over sensitive, or call me mindfuck. Jiu in the end dear always have to take in all my bullshit le bahs. :/ im sorry dear.
4 plus dear pei me take train to raffles and pei me walk to workplace there le. Audrey saw us then she told debra sia. work was still okok. Cos worked at dining area with huiting. then raymond with us. our dinner food was quite nice le. Got like fishbait, sausage, pork, chicken drumlet, belly, beef patty. my bowl so full of meat and i took picture also le. LOL. still got abc soup somemore. :):):) eat until happy happy with they others and keep saying lets quit together until like so happy lolol. Cos thing is working there now is already suffer le. All quit le those who stay is not suffer le. totally different story le. is die die die. lol. roar. damn hard lahs. want to be a man career and work is important but still damn dun like to work lehs? haas. joke.
Came home and sitting in aircon room. Ken never reply me lehs. they playing dota tonight but I work until closing so late they came home jiu playing le. never reply my msn le. :( then i dun play nor. but at home very proud of my fridge. the fresh milk marigold was expired tonight at 21:38. then jiu now come home is 2 packs of new HL milk le. wahahas. and got my pringles sourcream. and i eating durian. Wahahas. But I brushed teeth le lehs..
Damn freaking hate and will be pissed off if my day is wake up go work come home sleep. will feel like my whole day wasted for a 50 bucks. makes me damn sad and moody. and that 50 bucks doesn't makes my life better. understand what i mean? :x everyday must be like today like that then worthy of living mahs. and happy at work cos at the chocolate torte that cake. and after that the girls eating the cake they gimme i also dun wan le. hee. :)
next week schedule give randy then he say me why so smart skip all the busy days. but pls lahs. everyday also same die die one mahs. only die until how cham only. LOL. wanted 3 days of full days same as jeff. then he give me so little work. then my friday night also give him lo. then he very happy sia say like that is real man. yea right lol whatever. ahahs.
past few days my suicidal stage like really very jialat le. so hais dun really have to be very surprised if one day found me dead under some blocks le. it's always kel's random msgs of concern or thoughts, or buddies words, or xiang that makes me feel like better abit. Everyday singing Wo Zai Pin Shen Me. But not alot of people understand bahs. It's like ownself emo-ing and xiang will call. Then quietly clear off tears and throat then say hahs... Im fine u dun nid worry lahs. then after all the loneliness you gotta say Yea i think I know what I'm fighting for. Hwaiting. :)